Thursday, January 25, 2007

curious incident in the night

And they said that a cat has nine lives. At this point I am surely hoping that this is true.

Smeagols was born to us somewhere in 2004. When she was born she had a diarrea and almost uncurable fever along with her other siblings. She was the only one who survived. I stayed almost all nite feeding her milk mixed with a tinge of glucose because she was badly dehydrated.

When I brought her to the clinic, they said that they cant do anything. Her mom wouldnt feed her and apparently kittens have to have 2ml of milk every hour, and I along with my sister Nathra tried our very best keeping up to that.

Yes, she survived with a bad nerve problem. I imagine a kitten, now a cat with parkinson disease. She grew with that. People who had a glimpse of her will turn twice with amusement. Some called her "cacat" or "retarded". I just thought she was special.

Amongst my 8 other cats, I always had her number one on my list.

Yesterday, my dad found her sprawled on the floor, bleeding from face. Nathra woke me up at 11 last nite to tell me that Smeagols bleeding like crazy.

She had her jaw all smashed up, her nose no longer looked like one but more like a pulp. I swear, if you looked at her, you would have cried. Fuck! I'm guessing she met with an accident. But I have pyscho neighbours so I wouldnt be suprises if someone did this to her.

There's no 24 hours vet that I know about. So, we just keep her in, and she survived till morning with no painkiller whatsoever. She's now admitted into UPM vet centre for a diagnose. It's uncertain if they will be able to mend her. I feel like shit today, eventhough I know she's with the doctors, but it's just me, I really hope she's in safe hands. I pray, I hope after the x-ray, they will be able to at least have her jaws in place so she can purr and eat like normal.

Please God, she's one strong cat, she's done it before. I just pray that she'll be a fighter once again and come out of this. I love her, she's my special baby. I just hope she'll be able to come back to us again.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Orgasmic wait

Anticipation can be a killer, even when you know it's definite. It's like waiting for a certainty that will give all the answers you need to your immediate questions. That's how it's like.

I know I would have it by the weekend, still. My all planned up future is exactly at still waiting for it to come.

Come baby, come to me with that one certainty of which will change my life status for this moment.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

My medical romance

There is a limit on how a tv series can affect someone. Or a fan. I used to think idolizing people virtual characters like take Mawi for instance are for dummies. Like wert??

I know I used to throw statements like "oh, what's that face is so hot!!!, I could eat him/her alive" But that was just an overated statement I usually throw to get eyes rolling at me. Well, here it is not him or her. It's it. A virtual life, or way of life.

It's Grey's Anatomy for me. I think it has to do with the way I spent most of my days. It all started in Penang when I visited the DVD haram sellers, RM4 a piece dude, who wont turn into smugglers at that rate?

And so I got myself sweet Season 1 of Grey's Anatomy and now I'm regretting I never got the Uncut Season 2 as well.

I feel very very attached to Grey herself. Only I dont 48 hours shifts until I'm allowed to go home. It is a blessing that I wasnt smart enough to do medicine. Otherwise the way people are treated in there is somewhat like my work place.

Maybe it's her character. I dont know, something about her that just resembles me, I guess. Oh well, today I booked the whole season 2 from this guy at workplace.

My package gets delivered tomorrow. It's gonna be another medical romance weekend. Yippee!!

Friday, January 12, 2007

Four Grueling Days in Penang

I made it. I am now, or at least I consider myself to be a true process engineer. It was fun I would say, my first business convention, also my first technical presentation, what only a senior engineer participated in, and dude, I pulled it off!

So here are some re-caps. First day was warm, as in the welcome was good. Having to stay in a suite rated at RM 1400 a nite was overwhelming. I was addressed "mam", which was never the case. And talk about the view I had from my room, I after all needed a vacation. So, all in all, I would say, I deserved it.


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A welcome note

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I only had six hours on this luxurious crib every nite

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And when I'm stressed, this calms me, especially at nite

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The one year old consultant

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Battle of wits

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The PM giving his closing but hey no joke, standing like that, having to face another 61 people in that room just waiting to pound you with words.

After all that tongue tide moments, I made it. I even had people coming up to me saying I did well. Maybe they were being nice. But I swear, I have never thought I would have a stammer, and I did.

It's like being judged. Especially when one of the TCE participant told me off, "your recommendation no. 5 should not be shown on the slide. It's ridiculous." But it doesnt matter because my boss backed me up. There was this one question I single handedly tackled and made this bunch of people just shut the fuck up. For once.

I am back in the office today, just 5 hours of sleep last nite, it's crazy if this is really the life of a process engineer. I guess, if you are crazy in love with your job, then it is all worth it.

Thursday, January 04, 2007

Non-Smoker's Dillema: Day 6

It is almost 6 lucky days, still have the courage to stay without the nicotine sticks a.k.a ciggie a.k.a the cause of almost all sortsa desease.

It's my first experience having to come to starbucks without the customary item, the ashtray and my sticks as well as them lights. My fingers dont smell of that familiar stench no longer. I do admit that I have 3 puffs sometimes, from Pres.

Pres told me it's work that will make me turn to them again, but hey, I am under a whole lot of stress today and hey, I'm doin alright.

Battle no 1 : make sure that pretty, pretty girl who's enjoying her smoke does not get you.
Battle no 2 : I have to accept it if I grow dengan sehatnyer after this
Battle no 3 : it's work that make you go back, pres is right.

Since I will be in Penang, eventhough with my collegues, I have to admit this, I like being alone in my hotel room. The last time when I was on this business trip to Labuan, I played Age of Mythology like 4 hours straight. The time before in Miri, I bought a whole load of VCD haram, and kuaci and had the tv all to my self. Joy oh joy.

I have decided to maybe, present myself with a stick if I survive till Penang. Oh yes, I dont throw my remaining ciggies. Somehow, that box being there will make me not buy more and not start again.

Hopeful looking double o seven

Monday will be my first real business trip ever. I have been on many, but this time, it surely feels like it.

How will it not?

I will be presenting the capacity check study of Resak OGT to the board of Carigali. And man, that’s big to me or a lot of the engineers out there. And this is not just a ‘bunch’ of people from Carigali, this will be the Carigali Technical Excellence (CTE) team we are talking about. And I would bet this bunch will be better than the project team that keep commenting on petty things to the point they are getting on my nerves.

There’ll be some team building as well and hey, surely sounds like fun, not forgetting the cozy lil nice dinner. Maybe I’m just excited for nothing but this really something to me.

I have another thing I’ve been dying to drop to ya’ll. Looks like it is gonna be a great year ahead after all. With my 3rd wisdom tooth out, I proudly announce that I am a non-smoker. I haven’t had a ciggie ever since Friday. Yes, it’s been erm.. many days to me.

And yes people, Happy New Year. Hope this double 0-7 will do us all some good, like that increment I’m hoping on, like that trip to UK and probably Europe considering the fact it’s gonna be cheaper, thanks to Tony and many more hopes and dreams to fulfill.

Happy New Year ya’ll!!