Nyaman
I had some time to think about life (something I've not done in ages) over the weekend. I stayed at home alone while dad and Pres went to do their 'male bonding' thing. It felt good being alone at home. Played Sims2 all day on Indra. Procrastinated my work. But it felt like heaven.I figured out something about myself. I have never been more relaxed, calm, happy, focused in my life, than I am today. Ever.I have always had some trouble on my mind. It'll be about money. Or some random guy who rejected my feelings. Or some shit, I dont even need to worry about.But today, I feel... nyaman. That's probably the best word I can come up with.Maybe it's because I feel complete. And I know 'he' plays a big role in my feeling this way.Also, in 2 weeks I will get a confirmation on a certain suprise that you all await for. Some of you have heard of it. Here I am, still waiting for kata putus.
what's more precious than money?
Besides love, time.Time. the ticking sounds of seconds passing you by. And before you know it, it's all gone.How many times have you heard yourself or the person next to you go something like "if only i could turn bck time". Now face it, unless the pigs grow wings to fly, it aint hapenning dude.My ramblings, well, just to finish my being here (at the office cubicle so early, that the generator for air-conditionings not up yet) at this time of the day.I'm telling you, these days, I havent got time to think about life like I used to anymore. I used to think a whole lot about my past and how I can make it better by living the day. I even used to have the time to smoke my last stick before calling it a day, while thinking, so what have I done today?These days, I go to sleep thinking, "fuck i've got 6 more hours to catch on my sleep".My daily routine goes something like this:wake up at 5.45am. Mandi. At 6.10am call press to wake him up. Leave the house at 6.30am, pick him up. He drives me to work. By 7.20am I'm at work. Drink coffee. Have mee hun goreng dgn telur goreng and sambal sotong (same thing, I just have to say 'biasa' to the kakak and she knows my menu). Meet my new collegue cum best buddie at work called Nick. Once work start, the time we can chat is:1 - when he or i happen to have some doubts on work given2 - smoke break3 - when the boss is at a meeting (heheheh)before i know it, it's lunch time. Some days nick and I will go down to cold storage to grab a bite. some days I do my lone-shopping cum cat watching at pets wonderland. Then, it's back to work. Work work work till I go nuts looking at P&IDs, then smoke break again.Then time to go home, I eat dinner. Play a lil bit of indra. And go to zzzz.That's me on a random 'working day'. No tv. No exercise (what's that?).Ironically, I see much more after I tie the knot with pres. I'd like to live 5 mins from work, so time dont go to the bin when i'm stuck in the jam. Instead I can use that 2 hours at the gym. I wanna be able to cook for him. Food can be kinky. Yes, like strawberry and cream. Not cooking exactly but still.I aint complaining. I'm happy working here. I feel like a million dollars when I think " man, i've bagged my dream job"...all i need is time. just a lil more time to zzzz
